My 23rd birthday party was so sweet. It was magic to have so many people from different areas of my life together. Thank you to everyone and to my little brother for the amazing photos.
Today I am 23!
The typical response I hear is, “That’s so young!”
And while yes, it is young, I can’t help but think of all the millions upon billions of things that have happened in these 23 short years. And when I do, it actually feels quite old.
In the last 23 years…
I was born.
I grew up in Malibu, surrounded by two kind, handsome brothers, a mom who packed stellar school lunches and plans vacations like a pro, and a dad who’s easy laugh makes everyone love him. I passed afternoons playing in the Santa Monica mountains and summers swimming in the salty Pacific.
I moved to El Segundo, where I learned to drive, kissed a boy for the first time, attempted geometry and politics and biology but discovered the only thing I really like is writing.
I attended university, where I had an endless turnstyle of rooms and roommates and unrequited crushes. I learned to speak mediocre German and studied abroad in Heidelberg, where I was introduced to good coffee and train travel for the first time.
I graduated and moved to Weinheim on my own with two suitcases and tried my best to figure life out. I found an apartment and held a job and attempted to teach kids and get to know my coworkers. I cleaned a cooked and shopped and budgeted for myself. I rode a childs-sized bike everywhere in all manner of wild weather and dreamt longingly of my Honda CRV. I paid bills and made a few friends and deciphered what it means to feel simultaneously like a kid and an adult. I experienced genuine loneliness and joy and depression and elation and anxiety and triumph and love, to name a few. I felt the kindness of strangers and friends alike, who stuck with me through it all even when it might have been easier not to at times.
Thank you to so many people, near and far, who have supported me this year. From the friend who sat with me in a cafe when I was depressed and just listened, to the neighbor who brought me furniture when I had none, to the girlfriend who sent me a letter just because, the mom who mailed me socks when my feet were cold, the family who flew across oceans to visit me, the coworker who bought me american peanut butter, and so many others. I know without a doubt that I couldn’t have done it without you.
And that’s just scratching the surface! So yeah, can you blame me for thinking 23 is actually quite old in the grand scheme of things?! Even though there were times when it wasn’t easy or fun, I’m so grateful to have had the chance to do it all. I don’t deserve these blessings but hey, look, there they are anyways. I think maybe, just maybe, I am finally learning the meaning of gratitude at my advanced age :p
So here’s to 23+ more years of living in and learning about this beautiful world and trying my best to do myself and others proud. What a gift.
Spain really reminded me of California and made me excited to see my Golden Coast in a few short weeks 🙂
Spending a bit of time in the south of Spain with my brother and a few friends. My high school Spanish is a bit rusty but I am trying! I loved visiting the Mesquite Cathedral here in Córdoba and seeing the intersection of Christian, Muslim and Jewish architecture in the city. So cool!
Amsterdam is so hip. Honestly, I almost didn’t feel hip enough to be there!! It is such an artsy, whimsical city filled with friendly, cool people. I am a fan. The only downside is that I contracted Strep Throat while there! Lame. At least I could suffer in a beautiful place 🙂
Hello friends, how are you? I’ve been having fun traipsing around Europe with my little brother and our childhood friend who is conveniently studying abroad in Germany this summer. It feels so nice to be able to let loose completely and be around people who’ve known you your whole life. There’s nothing like it. After I spend time with them, I always stop and think why did that feel so different?
Because being known is everything. It is so important and I’ve missed that feeling a bit this year. You don’t realize how much your body and soul needs to be known until you’re placed in a new environment. I’m so glad to share these summer months with them. Below are a few photos from life lately. Enjoy!The neighborhood of Kreuzberg was my favorite spot in Berlin. So funky. So punk. So cool.Euro brother in Frankfurt.Bowling. Reader, I was HORRIBLE. Consistently horrible all ten rounds. My pride is still recovering.
At the Heidelberg castle.
Well, enough said.Hiking to the petting zoo with a class from school. The bus didn’t show up so it turned into a rather long adventure, but at least the scenery was pretty ;p
Have a good one!
Happy happy happy am I
1. The slant of the roof in my attic apartment
2. The punctuality of the buses
3. The little cloth shopping carts the grannies pull to the supermarket every day
4. My way-too-small child’s bike that gives me a back ache but has carried me all over the place through crazy weather
5. The German way of saying good morning
6. Good espresso served at every food establishment
7. My little neighbor girls downstairs popping their heads out of the window to say hi as I walk by
8. The ultra fancy, posh McDonalds where people literally go on first dates
Happy happy happy